I CAN T BELIEVE U DID IT ITS HERE bc im me im going to comment first and then take my time to finecomb and freak out but TRUST ME I WILL FINECOMB AND FREAK OUT

ok im back from the dead like u killed me and then revived me ASH IMMMM???? im about to leave u a comment that might be half the wc of this fic but i am past caring!!

how did you fit an entire like..... pwp character/rs study/akam thesis/bourbon's akai hate manifesto in 4.6k of PORN????? i mean i shouldn't be surprised at this point bc we've both acknowledged at this point that akam is extreme extreme bait to the things we both like and so ofcccc this would have everything and i mean EVERYTHING from the dom/sub undertones, reluctant futile show of protest indignance (perfect 1s and 0s soooo much), and then oh my god the identityfuckeryyyyy . so much identityporn its unreal it is true that they really do be giving us 3 names for each of them for free...

ok line by line time (kinda embarrassing this is just the whole fic . this is a live react comment actually):

Amuro had been driving back from a meeting with Vermouth and figured he might as well spend a bit of time staking out the Kudo mansion before heading home, in case Vermouth called him back out for something else. // but matching Vermouth’s sweetly poisonous languor as Bourbon earlier had left him restless, antagonistic in no particular direction

ok so many things firstable u seeding ur ideal verbon dynamics with the understated antagonism and how that takes a toll on him... the haptics and proxemics!! i am eating them. secondly "might as well" HELP. he is so transparent it is unreal but the thing that kills me is that amuro fully believes in his own excuses he's like yeah. this is a very valid and not personally motivated reason to stake out the residence of the object of my hatred. has nothing to do with how i hate him so much and want to kill him and am constantly thinking die die die die @ him at all times.

“Do you do a lot of repetitive pulling motions with your left forefinger in your particular field of specialisation?” Amuro inquires. // “Yes,” Okiya says pleasantly, and doesn’t elaborate.

i know u already showed me this but it is still so funny the second time around especially bc this is just canonical to me at this point. like based off of the scarlet return arc + the dead musician case that is literally how okiya would've responded. just shameless implausible deniability; akai says one (1) word and bourbon fumes enough to start a small fire in his own mind... i cannot lie i love to see it

ok like i kid you not when okiya started crowding him against the wall my hands flew up to my mouth i was like it's happening.... its happening... the kabedon amuro (doesn't know he wants but/knows he wants but will never admit he) deserves

A minute shift in posture; Amuro’s hand darts instantly to his gun, but Okiya’s fingers are already at Amuro’s waistband, one step quicker, flipping the gun out of its holster and out of his reach. // “You won’t be needing this,” Okiya says, tossing the gun onto the table behind them.

YOU DID ITTT im literally [hahaha yes!! yes!!!].png rn. its literally so sexy to literally disarm someone and render them defenseless but not really bc they're both killing machines and bourbon Could kill akai with his bare hands but LIKE it's about the action... the gesture... the implications, the 1s and 0s, the akai being in control!!

Amuro tries to murder him with his eyes. Predictably, this doesn’t work.

i laughed i rly did sldkfjsldf oh rei-kun... <3 angry repressed zeros are so good all the time. like fr. the "oh no im turned on so i must now redirect the energy to looking as pissed off as possible" of it allllll

Amuro’s seen Vermouth slip in and out of identities with the perfection of water filling the shape of its vessel

this line is so good. vermouth chameleonest of ever, flawless cosplay roulette every ep shes in...

Okiya adjusts easily to the shift in weight distribution, hand coming to rest at the small of Amuro’s back while Amuro bites unhappily at Okiya’s bottom lip.

bites unhappily really got me it's so cute that amuro is like... still in denial while he's the one who initiated in the first place. AND THEN THE MANHANDLING <3 U KNOW I LOVE TO SEE IT

“You,” he manages, low. “Akai—”


Okiya cuts him off with another kiss, then draws back just slightly, hand curving around the back of Amuro’s neck. “I don’t know who that is,” he says, breath fanning over Amuro’s lips, “but your preoccupation with that man is concerning. Focus on me, Amuro-san.”

im sorry i really do be quoting ur whole fic back at u but THIS IS SO!! AKAI IS SO SHAMELESS LIKE I THINK WE NEED TO CREATE A NEW WORD ENTIRELY TO REPLACE IT BC SHAMELESS ISNT ENOUGH TO DESCRIBE HIM... akai be like gaslighting people for free bc its sexy and reasserts his control of the situation/over them and also angers beautiful zeros making them even more flustered and horny and impulsive. perfect plan i love guys who win all the time.

Heat needling all over his skin almost enough to drown out the old and bitter conviction already unfurling inside him, the feeling of something seen in hindsight. Like Okiya had known from the start. Like everything’s only tipping forward towards the inevitable.

i love love this so much LIKE ALL OF AMURO'S STRUGGLE IS FUTILE AND USELESS AND PETTY AND JUST FOR SHOW BC THEY BOTH KNOW WHERE THIS IS GOING ANYWAY... akam is just... inevitable and that is something that can be so personal truly

But first: Amuro finds himself sprawled naked on Okiya's bed while Okiya looms above him, still fully dressed, to Amuro's displeasure. The imbalance in their conditions is all the more grating for the anticipatory pulse of arousal Amuro’s hyperawareness of it sends fluttering through his stomach.

THIS IS EVERYTHING. ur god x3 it is literally always about the power imbalance the contrast btwn states of vulnerability... and the fact that that also turns amuro on... baby never had a CHANCE.

“No marks,” Amuro warns, even as he can’t help tilting his head to the side to give Okiya better access to his neck. “I don’t suit suspiciously high collars.”

I <3 PETTY ZEROS SO MUCH... even when he's abt to get f*cked out of his mind he still has to bite back a little... and the fact that okiya smiles bc he finds it endearing bc AGAIN... HE IS IN TOTAL CONTROL...

“I’ll take good care of you,” Okiya promises, reaching towards the nightstand, and there’s absolutely no reason for him to sound that sincere about it.

mister non-gemini venus being sincere and serious about it despite ummm being liar mc liarson for his #cover... like the tenderness of this is too much for amuro and so he would rather be even MORE physically/sexually vulnerable bc its a small price to pay when compared to having to be emotionally vulnerable at all... um the repression runs deep

how badly he wants Okiya's dextrous sniper’s fingers inside him.

this is sexy. like objectively. something something author/reader's undisguised f*tish

okiya is so evil for flipping him back over!! but also i knew this would happen. forcible unrepression >>>>>>>>> and then okiya fucking him before he can say anything i love 1s that are always in control so much its unreal....

“Won’t you look at me? I’d like to see your face.” // “Have you considered that I don’t want to see yours?"

<33333 it really is like 😏😏😏 vs 💢💢💢

“Stay with me, Amuro-kun,” he says. // “I’m—older than you,” Amuro manages, hips jerking up into Okiya’s grip. // “So you are,” Okiya agrees, smile pulling the corners of his mouth sharp as a knife. “Amuro-san.”

not the honorifics fuckery, okiya entertaining him just for the hell of it... so sexy to admit amuro is right and still have the upper hand

amuro bristling and glowering like a bitchy cat i really love to see it so much ITS SO CUTE...

“I hate you,” Amuro hisses, reaching up to clutch restlessly at Okiya’s back, wanting more closeness, more everything, “fuck—I hate you so much—” // Okiya says, very tenderly, “I know.”

LITERALLY SO GOOD... akam thesis statement right here it really is like that amuro ball of rage and akai endless patience to watch amuro drive himself into a frenzy bc he knows he will always win -> THE TENDERNESS being worse yes this is so familiar to me!! as if they were lovers...

Rye’s cold violence or Okiya’s solicitous courtesy or the man at the core of both, the shadow he’s been chasing for years and years, all his grief and his fury crushed into an adamantine clarity of purpose.

u seriously get it so much amuro is so guy who is so consumed by his hatred of all of akais identities... like the only way he doesn't lose his inhibitions is by redirecting all of his attention on how much he hates akai...

“Don’t touch yourself, Amuro-kun,” Okiya whispers. His shirt is damp with both of their sweat. “Think you can do that for me?”

he is so evil!! [said dreamily] the generosity of okiya but also the simultaneous torment.... it is so good x93042384. AND THEN AMURO GROWLING... he's so petulant like a kid it's seriously so adorable. its so easy to imagine akai horny but like endeared while this is happening

“Good boy. You’re doing so well,” and eases back into him.

HE CALLED HIM GOOD BOY... rip to all michs i am so weak for this it is unreal

but the choice is, as it always is when it comes to Akai, out of his hands.

hehe the mild dubcon but not really dubcon but also it really is dubcon.... yes >:)

“Amuro-san,” Okiya says. “Was it too much?” // Amuro can’t manage anything more eloquent than a heartfelt, “Die.”

i dont know how many more times i can say this but i love antagonisms so much. smirk emoji anger emoji = perfect combination

also akai just going straight back into the confirmation bias spiel while amuro is like brains fucked out in bed is so evil of him but like. of course he does. AND THEN TOUCHING HIS CHEEK....evil evil man. but he is objectively very nice guy so this is incredible of him truly.

it’s only because Okiya is letting him

hehe in control tops again. for the 239048394th time this comment but i really do love to see it so much. and the fact that amuro is aware of it. so perfect.

wah i so so love that you used furuya right there when he's "unmasking" okiya into akai... literally so perfect the identityfckery I ATE WELL...

inert in the way that a live mine is inert

this is rly such a perfect description of akai??? like he always has the potential to disarm and destroy but every day he is consciously choosing not to unless he's threatened or wants to fuck with amuro for funsies. such a perfect 1 and 0 dynamic.

Fate closing in around all of his selves like a garotte.

hehe ash prose that tickles my brain and soothes my ails.... weapon imagery is so sxc fr

Akai smiles. In the voice Furuya would know anywhere, he says, gently, “I’ll be waiting.”

PERFECT ENDING akai and furuya w/ all those layers of pretense stripped away. ofc he ends with a death threat, thats our boy... akai magnanimously accepting the challenge bc he knows it wouldn't happen anyway he's had too many chances and hasn't taken them :')

if u couldnt tell by now this is literally everything to me thank u for generously letting me feast my eyes upon it. ur god ur everything!! literally dont know how u inhabit alternate universe where u think u write porn badly bc this was so well done <33333 i look foward to ummmm everything u have planned for conanmeta/fic as per voice call discussion hehe. omegaverse GET!!