赤安同人誌 review post pt 1
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rhodochrositelast month i temporarily lost my grip on reality and bought 15 doujinshi off tora, 12 of which were for a ship i had not actually met yet at the time but i'm glad i invested early because ummmm [REDACTED] [REDACTED] and now i get the task of stretching my literacy to breaking point trying to read them. i will be summarising + reviewing them in batches... i kind of wanted to scanlate all of these tbh but there are literally hundreds of pages here and i'm not that insane (yet?) but i will try to scanlate the highlights at least. sorry in advance about my really bad scanning and cleaning and typesetting i literally only have my phone and ms paint.
now i have like 2 or 3 more posts specifically on the topic planned but firstly i want to say that i have never been as insanely baited by a ship in my life as i have just been by akam. the last time i got this gotten was compromiseshipping which i literally invented myself with the express purpose of catering precisely to my own tastes but i am now receiving directly from canon FOR FREE. perfect 1 x 0 dynamics only exist!!!!!!!
綺麗なおにいさんと、その彼氏 - shiina
summary: outsider pov on akam from the perspective of an intern working at the psb who has a crush on furuya but no idea about furuya's superspy deal and thinks he's just a handsome officeworker. also he thinks akai is a hollywood movie star lmfao
thoughts: I LOVE OUTSIDER POV SO MUCH IT'S UNREALLL didn't give a fuck about the intern pov character as an oc but his assumptions and total misunderstanding of the situation were so funny and i don't think he was supposed to have a real personality or anything anyway. absolutely obsessed with the part at the end where the intern overheard akam having a fight and furuya was doing his usual 口是心非 routine telling akai to let go of him etc etc and obviously akai was not letting go but the intern thought it was serious and charged in to defend furuya's honour. though there was a kind of stupid bit that i disagreed with where the intern actually landed a punch on akai... like what? no he didn't. akai said later it was because he was distracted by how the intern looked at furuya with such clear eyes which is like, sure, but you are literally a jeet kune do master and a superspy how are you letting some random kid who has never thrown a punch in his life get the drop on you?! dodging should literally be instinct????? other than that + a couple of other points where i disagreed with the characterisation the humour was fun and the romance was very heartfluttering and the little bit of angst was chef's kiss as well!!!
i do agree that akai being an american fbi agent whose loyalty is personal rather than idealistic and furuya being a strongly devoted japanese psb agent who believes in ideals is a point (one of many between them lol) of ideological tension that will cause problems if they enter a relationship especially bc it'll have to be long-distance but i like the optimism in shiina-san's vision. and i also think that it will work out because love is real and true!!*
*i can't be held responsible for what i'm saying rn, i just got my heart broken by a ya romance book and my emotional state is extremely fragile
LDR - ino
とこしえの春逢、紡ぐ明日 - kitada
now i have like 2 or 3 more posts specifically on the topic planned but firstly i want to say that i have never been as insanely baited by a ship in my life as i have just been by akam. the last time i got this gotten was compromiseshipping which i literally invented myself with the express purpose of catering precisely to my own tastes but i am now receiving directly from canon FOR FREE. perfect 1 x 0 dynamics only exist!!!!!!!
綺麗なおにいさんと、その彼氏 - shiina
summary: outsider pov on akam from the perspective of an intern working at the psb who has a crush on furuya but no idea about furuya's superspy deal and thinks he's just a handsome officeworker. also he thinks akai is a hollywood movie star lmfao
thoughts: I LOVE OUTSIDER POV SO MUCH IT'S UNREALLL didn't give a fuck about the intern pov character as an oc but his assumptions and total misunderstanding of the situation were so funny and i don't think he was supposed to have a real personality or anything anyway. absolutely obsessed with the part at the end where the intern overheard akam having a fight and furuya was doing his usual 口是心非 routine telling akai to let go of him etc etc and obviously akai was not letting go but the intern thought it was serious and charged in to defend furuya's honour. though there was a kind of stupid bit that i disagreed with where the intern actually landed a punch on akai... like what? no he didn't. akai said later it was because he was distracted by how the intern looked at furuya with such clear eyes which is like, sure, but you are literally a jeet kune do master and a superspy how are you letting some random kid who has never thrown a punch in his life get the drop on you?! dodging should literally be instinct????? other than that + a couple of other points where i disagreed with the characterisation the humour was fun and the romance was very heartfluttering and the little bit of angst was chef's kiss as well!!!
i do agree that akai being an american fbi agent whose loyalty is personal rather than idealistic and furuya being a strongly devoted japanese psb agent who believes in ideals is a point (one of many between them lol) of ideological tension that will cause problems if they enter a relationship especially bc it'll have to be long-distance but i like the optimism in shiina-san's vision. and i also think that it will work out because love is real and true!!*
*i can't be held responsible for what i'm saying rn, i just got my heart broken by a ya romance book and my emotional state is extremely fragile
highlights:
- mob psb guys gossipping about furuya lmao (intern guy doesn't know furuya's name yet at this point)
- intern guy overhearing akam fight... the drama <3 sorry to this kid who doesn't know that furuya is a tsundere. also sorry that you can tell halfway thru cleaning these scans i realised i forgot to set the black values in levels
- furuya treats intern guy's injured hand after he attempts to punch out akai YES I CRIED DO NOT TEXT furuya's expression when he says 「最愛の人」 got me so fucked uppp
LDR - ino
summary: three years after the defeat of the black organisation, akai and furuya go on a vacation to yosemite national park together. also furuya is under the impression that he and akai are fwbs but akai thinks he and furuya are in a long distance relationship, cue emotional misalignment angst
thoughts: NOT FUNNY. CRIED. ino-san caught me slipping... i finished this one at midnight while pmsing and i was like genuinely sobbing through most of it, i thought it was just gonna some be easy pwp reading but the emotions killed me and i'm not even really a fwbliker but I Understand Everything Now. physical intimacy that's without emotional intimacy (or so you think) even though you wish it was different... I SEE!! i enjoy drastic contrasts between physical and emotional distance but idk why fwb trope never clicked in this way for me until now. the real true love literally touched my heart so much i had to critically reflect on myself for a while because i do really dislike outright confessions/declarations of being in love but 「愛してるよ、零」/「初めて聞いたな。。。僕も貴方を愛してる」still ended my life... deserve after all that intensely repressed pining. i'm still not writing that out in english though. maybe it's just ok because it's not in one of my native languages ctfu...
my favourite part which i included in the highlights but i have to mention again as guy who is susceptible to smells is that furuya would occasionally secretly smoke cigarettes from the brand akai uses because he missed akai... and then at the end it turns out akai knew because he smelled it on furuya once and recognised it 😭😭 and my favourite line is from the opening narration explaining the premise: "At the same time, I realised I had no more reason to hate Akai. The only thing left, which I had kept covered up with hatred and obsession, was longing." it's LITERALLY TRUE, to me, that even when furuya wanted to kill akai he was also in love with him!!!
also the porn was so good but i already knew it would be lmao. i'm so glad i bought all of ino-san's djs that were in stock, actually i had only read her porn comics before but her storytelling and art is so so so amazing. and i take immense critical damage just from how she draws furuya so incredibly beautiful so actually trying to read is a serious struggle because i keep getting distracted by beautifullest zeroes of the world.
thoughts: NOT FUNNY. CRIED. ino-san caught me slipping... i finished this one at midnight while pmsing and i was like genuinely sobbing through most of it, i thought it was just gonna some be easy pwp reading but the emotions killed me and i'm not even really a fwbliker but I Understand Everything Now. physical intimacy that's without emotional intimacy (or so you think) even though you wish it was different... I SEE!! i enjoy drastic contrasts between physical and emotional distance but idk why fwb trope never clicked in this way for me until now. the real true love literally touched my heart so much i had to critically reflect on myself for a while because i do really dislike outright confessions/declarations of being in love but 「愛してるよ、零」/「初めて聞いたな。。。僕も貴方を愛してる」still ended my life... deserve after all that intensely repressed pining. i'm still not writing that out in english though. maybe it's just ok because it's not in one of my native languages ctfu...
my favourite part which i included in the highlights but i have to mention again as guy who is susceptible to smells is that furuya would occasionally secretly smoke cigarettes from the brand akai uses because he missed akai... and then at the end it turns out akai knew because he smelled it on furuya once and recognised it 😭😭 and my favourite line is from the opening narration explaining the premise: "At the same time, I realised I had no more reason to hate Akai. The only thing left, which I had kept covered up with hatred and obsession, was longing." it's LITERALLY TRUE, to me, that even when furuya wanted to kill akai he was also in love with him!!!
also the porn was so good but i already knew it would be lmao. i'm so glad i bought all of ino-san's djs that were in stock, actually i had only read her porn comics before but her storytelling and art is so so so amazing. and i take immense critical damage just from how she draws furuya so incredibly beautiful so actually trying to read is a serious struggle because i keep getting distracted by beautifullest zeroes of the world.
highlights (nsfw):
- post battle adrenaline fuelled victory first kiss <3
- idk why furuya wondering what kind of relationship they look like they have from the outside killed me instantly... akam really is such a good ship for outsider pov trope bc they have sooooo much intense and fucked up history between them
- AKAI'S CIGARETTES!! hehehe... furuya is so cute beautiful perfect zero when mad and flustered. akai wanting to see furuya jerk off while smoking is so so good also (guy who likes reluctant-but-not-really exhibitionism)
- post sex... a little bit of overstim as a treat, a little bit of blindingly romantic dialogue as another treat TT... actual love confession i quoted happens after this part but i'm too embarrassed to scan it
- They Finally Realised :) furuya's bedhead sooooo cute i died
とこしえの春逢、紡ぐ明日 - kitada
summary: akai and amuro have a conversation in the park under the cherry blossoms
thoughts: i don't know how to say this respectfully but i do mean it with utmost respect: this story reminds me a lot of my own stylistic fic choices but executed in a way that is so beautiful... in that ostensibly nothing is happening (it literally is just a chance encounter and a conversation interspersed with some flashbacks) but it's all about the multiple conversations being conducted at the same time through ambiguous dialogue with a light(er) surface layer and a kind of extremely anguished deeper layer. and also it's barely shippy at all, and i don't mean in a hateristic sense (which literally IS shippy), it's just like this underlying feeling of vague tension that might explode at any moment or might not. i deeply respect anyone who makes ship content that makes me question whether they actually ship the people in question, because that's what i also aim to do. like i was getting so into this more distant and subdued version of their usual (mostly onesided) high-octane manifestations of haterism that i actually got so shocked when there was a fade to black and apparently they fucked offscreen but luckily this did not improve their relationship at all <3 or well... the disjunct between what amuro says and what he is clearly telegraphing through his actions and body language is seriously SO good. and akai who is always serious and honest and willing to go along with amuro's deflections (up to a certain point) :')
i love kitada-san's writing but i seriously be struggling to comprehend it my japanese is kind of not good enough to engage with the themes and metaphors and Deepness that i can tell are present but it's a little beyond my grasp ~__~ the parts i did get were soooo tails_gets_trolled.png though, i think kitada-san might be one of my favourite akam artists and storytellers overall. there were parallels being drawn between akai's father dying and scotch & amuro's other police academy classmates dying in order to set up narrative parallels and foils between akai and amuro which is ofc THE MOST ROMANTIC THING IN THE WORLD TO ME... akai's loss making him more determined to hold on to the people he cares about vs amuro's loss making him more determined to keep everyone distant...
the serakaineda family feelings really got me in this one, i've been too busy trying to figure out their deal in canon to properly think about their dynamics and all that but ummmmm TT akai's memory of the last time he saw his father and how he wanted the day to last forever TT
^ i loooove the twist to amuro's mouth here
kiss mark web再録集 - asakura
summary: miscellaneous collection of short comics and art
thoughts: i haven't actually properly read the akam half of this yet i've only skimmed LMAO i actually bought this one because i was intrigued by the vermouth/bourbon comics and they delivered soooo much. asakura-san describes her vermouth/bourbon as "not the kind of relationship where they're dating or fucking, but the kind of relationship where they sleep together and take baths together" which i love to see even though i think my personal conceptualisation of vermouth/bourbon has more complex power dynamics and mildly antagonistic tension despite coworkerisms. overall i think the tone of these skews a little too light/humorous/unserious for my tastes because i do primarily enjoy akam and related black org dynamics for the drama and intensity and It Really Is That Serious of it all but it's suchhhh a beautiful art style i love to see everyone elegantly shoujoified so i don't mind. i like to have a little laugh sometimes too :)
akai/amuro
promising to kill someone and asking them to promise to kill you in return is literally the most romantic thing in the world
akai + vermouth
love a little bit of 1 v 1 tension kkk
akai + jodie
i'm like TT just like TT
vermouth + bourbon
rt myself: you ever platonically fall asleep on your higher-ranked coworker's tits. the implication that bourbon is drawn to vermouth because she reminds him of elena miyano is also Much To Consider
gin/vermouth
so funny to me that this one was included too but i read this and instantly understood the appeal of gin/vermouth... blondekiller1 x blondekiller1 seductively cosplaying as a 0 for manipulation and powerplay and sexy antagonism reasons is so good actually!!
+ bonus: 86400秒のファクト - kitada
i'm sooooo sad that most of kitada-san's works are out of stock because the summaries and previews look so good and sacred text worthy AND I'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO READ THEM.... i could only get my hands on three 😭 (the cherry blossom d&m one in this post, a rye/bourbon+scotch casefic, and a story about akai right after his rye cover gets blown and he has to escape the black organisation). but anyway the haptics and proxemics of these pages knocked me out instantly... akai breaking into furuya's house, casually pinning him to the wall and disarming him and then welcoming him home HELLO???
thoughts: i don't know how to say this respectfully but i do mean it with utmost respect: this story reminds me a lot of my own stylistic fic choices but executed in a way that is so beautiful... in that ostensibly nothing is happening (it literally is just a chance encounter and a conversation interspersed with some flashbacks) but it's all about the multiple conversations being conducted at the same time through ambiguous dialogue with a light(er) surface layer and a kind of extremely anguished deeper layer. and also it's barely shippy at all, and i don't mean in a hateristic sense (which literally IS shippy), it's just like this underlying feeling of vague tension that might explode at any moment or might not. i deeply respect anyone who makes ship content that makes me question whether they actually ship the people in question, because that's what i also aim to do. like i was getting so into this more distant and subdued version of their usual (mostly onesided) high-octane manifestations of haterism that i actually got so shocked when there was a fade to black and apparently they fucked offscreen but luckily this did not improve their relationship at all <3 or well... the disjunct between what amuro says and what he is clearly telegraphing through his actions and body language is seriously SO good. and akai who is always serious and honest and willing to go along with amuro's deflections (up to a certain point) :')
i love kitada-san's writing but i seriously be struggling to comprehend it my japanese is kind of not good enough to engage with the themes and metaphors and Deepness that i can tell are present but it's a little beyond my grasp ~__~ the parts i did get were soooo tails_gets_trolled.png though, i think kitada-san might be one of my favourite akam artists and storytellers overall. there were parallels being drawn between akai's father dying and scotch & amuro's other police academy classmates dying in order to set up narrative parallels and foils between akai and amuro which is ofc THE MOST ROMANTIC THING IN THE WORLD TO ME... akai's loss making him more determined to hold on to the people he cares about vs amuro's loss making him more determined to keep everyone distant...
the serakaineda family feelings really got me in this one, i've been too busy trying to figure out their deal in canon to properly think about their dynamics and all that but ummmmm TT akai's memory of the last time he saw his father and how he wanted the day to last forever TT
highlights:
- i don't even know akai's dad's name but i too had a little cry
- i love how hard amuro tries to convince himself that not only do they not know e/o but he doesn't want them to know e/o... you keep telling yourself there's nothing there
- why would you bring your rival/enemy/coworker/person who killed the person you loved most in the world/temporary ally/??? to a deeply personal and private place where you allow yourself to be emotionally vulnerable? if not because despite everything and even though you would never admit it you DO want to let him in?? also AKEMI TTTTTTTTTTTTTT
- i assume this is implying amuro doesn't know the truth about scotch's death yet, but is slowly moving towards being able to grasp on a rational level that akai had to "kill" scotch to maintain his own cover even tho it wasn't like that at all, whereas before he was too consumed by grief and hatred to even compartmentalise any of it like he's doing here. amuro trying so hard to seem composed and distant when it's clearly still a huge source of hurt...
^ i loooove the twist to amuro's mouth here
- post one night stand lmao. they don't need room that cannot be exited without having sex, they need room that cannot be exited without a full conversation where they say what they actually mean
kiss mark web再録集 - asakura
summary: miscellaneous collection of short comics and art
thoughts: i haven't actually properly read the akam half of this yet i've only skimmed LMAO i actually bought this one because i was intrigued by the vermouth/bourbon comics and they delivered soooo much. asakura-san describes her vermouth/bourbon as "not the kind of relationship where they're dating or fucking, but the kind of relationship where they sleep together and take baths together" which i love to see even though i think my personal conceptualisation of vermouth/bourbon has more complex power dynamics and mildly antagonistic tension despite coworkerisms. overall i think the tone of these skews a little too light/humorous/unserious for my tastes because i do primarily enjoy akam and related black org dynamics for the drama and intensity and It Really Is That Serious of it all but it's suchhhh a beautiful art style i love to see everyone elegantly shoujoified so i don't mind. i like to have a little laugh sometimes too :)
highlights:
akai/amuro
promising to kill someone and asking them to promise to kill you in return is literally the most romantic thing in the world
akai + vermouth
love a little bit of 1 v 1 tension kkk
akai + jodie
i'm like TT just like TT
vermouth + bourbon
rt myself: you ever platonically fall asleep on your higher-ranked coworker's tits. the implication that bourbon is drawn to vermouth because she reminds him of elena miyano is also Much To Consider
gin/vermouth
so funny to me that this one was included too but i read this and instantly understood the appeal of gin/vermouth... blondekiller1 x blondekiller1 seductively cosplaying as a 0 for manipulation and powerplay and sexy antagonism reasons is so good actually!!
+ bonus: 86400秒のファクト - kitada
i'm sooooo sad that most of kitada-san's works are out of stock because the summaries and previews look so good and sacred text worthy AND I'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO READ THEM.... i could only get my hands on three 😭 (the cherry blossom d&m one in this post, a rye/bourbon+scotch casefic, and a story about akai right after his rye cover gets blown and he has to escape the black organisation). but anyway the haptics and proxemics of these pages knocked me out instantly... akai breaking into furuya's house, casually pinning him to the wall and disarming him and then welcoming him home HELLO???
T__T
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Date: 2021-09-11 05:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-09-11 10:04 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-09-11 07:28 am (UTC)re: this one, i kind of dont care for outsider pov in fic but fsr in like manga/doujins LEGITIMATELYYYYY my favorite trope ever like whenever it shows up in any random bl i read im like YES....HAHA....YES!!!!!! especially this Exact format like outsider pov from Guy who has crush on MY oshipick...chefs kiss
🥴🥴🥴 Um.......help girl if you know how i feel about ideological tensions and SPECIFICALLY personal loyalties inner circle 1 vs idealistic principles oriented 0 ummmmmmmm................
also randomly taken out by intern ocs name being ryoma like wtf............
......there can only be one
no comments on the ldr one but the parts u scanlated are kind of so good despite knowing nothing.....god do i love 1s and 0s<3
ok im kind of shaking rn at how this descrip and the scans just unlocked like deep seated memories of a fujiryo doujin i used to read obsessively where like they literally just go for a drive and have casual small talk conversations but the whole thing feels so intense webnmewbnwem att i was like why is this so crazy nothing even happens but now im like What Were The Dots i was meant to be connecting....i mean that one was shippy cuz im pretty sure they do fuck in the car but like besides that
Classmates? So theyre classmates? are they CLASSMATES?
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Date: 2021-09-11 10:03 am (UTC)LMAOO i remember u like stuff from oshi love goggles pov! i hope u will like amuro when u meet him in ummmm 500 episodes >__> personal loyalties inner circle 1 vs idealistic principles oriented 0 WINNING FORMULA EVERY TIME its so good tho. and so fundamental to akam future relationship trajectory. dkfjgdkfjgksfj literally i didnt bother to read intern ocs name until i had to tl for this post and i was like wait a sec #NotMyRyoma
lfmdskjgkj glad u enjoyed the ldr one too... as u know i also love 1s and 0s <3 ino-san is literally god to me.. i have one of her ynak djs too but ive been too scared of the terror to read it yet lmao
omg i litr see the vision in my mind i think the #NothingHappens but like atmosphere being randomly intense asf style is soooo good for fjry bc its just like how their dynamic plays out on like a million i know you know i know dimensions... like emotional telepathy... fdskgdkhfkjds akam did also fuck in this one offscreen but yeah also besides that
omfg ive been trying to figure out how to describe vermouth/bourbon for soooo long theyre like the overlap centre of classmates-coworkers-henchman venn diagram... its like classmates but vermouth is higher ranked and more powerful but bourbon knows one of her big secrets as leverage But also its platonic 1s and 0s So basically like joint venture business partners but bourbon is also vermouths handbag dog. i hope that makes sense